Friday, August 27, 2010


Lately something BIG has come to me.
Make me think for a long time to search for my inner-self.
Seems like I was lost and I don't know how to come back to the right path.
And having to face the fact that in the future things will never ever be the same again after this. Wanted to regret it but it's already too late for me.
Right now I feel empty and useless.
Nothing much that I can do to make things right.
I tried though but still I think it's wasn't good enough.
I am not good enough.
I spend my days pretending like I've got nothing to worry about but in the end,
I ended up crying my heart out every night blaming myself.
How stupid I was back then.
I really has lost myself.
No matter what, this guilt will never fades away.
From time to time I prayed to Allah swt to give me some strength to go through the hardships that I bear from a long time ago until now.
I was hoping and still hoping...that someday I could really let them go...
All the bad memories will fade away someday...I'm hoping so much...

Wednesday, August 18, 2010


Originally uploaded by NorAdzwaty Rokkafella
So many people from all kinds of races also came to the bazaar ramadhan because of the temptation from the various selection of foods...

Monday, August 9, 2010


Originally uploaded by NorAdzwaty Rokkafella
Meet Atikah...our model for photoshooting at Makiau Waterfall yesterday (08th 0f August ). Meeting new friends from Sandakan Photography Lovers and experience the new excitement during outing for the whole day, except I didn't manage to go with them to Dundulit Beach to watch the sunset...

Thursday, August 5, 2010


Titisan airmata sepi merungkai isi hati yang terdalam

Padu perasaan memuntahkan gelora rasa seribu warna

Tatkala topengnya berlagu riang

Ada hati yang kecundang

Akankah bisa terawat oleh sang hujan

Yang tidak pasti jika titisannya turun secara bertitik-titik atau berturutan

Persoalan yang entah bila dapat ditelusuri

Jauh di dasarnya ada harapan yang menjulang

Bahawa hidup memang tidak selalu indah kerana ada DIA yang mengaturnya

Seringkas dan sesulit mana pun pasti akan terjelaskan dengan jawapan-jawapan

Yang kadang tidak disangka kewujudannya

Hati-hatilah wahai hati

Pilihan hanya sentiasa ada dua

Hati yang sendu bisa menjadi biru sebiru langit lambangnya cinta...

~Adz Rulliyyah~

Just for thoughts...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010


Things have been a mess recently between me and my love. I don't know what to do now. I am so stupid to realize that this man is loving me so much but I got his feeling hurt by what I said. I don't know...It seems that we're going through a bad time. I don't know if this is just what I feel right now coz he's not acting the way he supposed to be before. I found his feeling towards me getting colder. I admit that I was guilty to make him crazy mad at me. I'm sorry...I'm really really sorry...I wish I could make it up to you. But...I don't feel like you'd love me anymore after what I just did to you. I MISS YOU SO BAD THAT I WOULD CRY...every night when I saw our picture together...

Monday, August 2, 2010


Originally uploaded by NorAdzwaty Rokkafella
" Padi Bukit ". Rice = Hope...


Originally uploaded by NorAdzwaty Rokkafella
meet my cute little niece...Putri Nur Syuhadah...this picture was taken while she was eating rice porridge by herself...haha